Sorry to disappoint you all

What a bad day. It all started with my watch stopping. It kept showing the 15th as the date and 7.45 as the time.

Should have known it was an omen. A bad one.

Anyway, the bus came late and we reached NTU late. So we set up the booth, found that it was bare and actually, I shan’t elaborate more. I’m too tired.

I had to present to the judges. However, I couldn’t use the presentation I used for the oral presentation at the LT last Friday. I had to summarise it and use the giant posters for reference and refrain form using the slides Siu Sing created as it was an exhibition, not a presentation.

I am NOT spontaneous. I need one whole night to think and then rehearse, make changes, read aloud AND then and ONLY then can I come up with a usual presentation. No matter how long or short the presentation is, I need time. Unfortunately, there wasn’t time this afternoon.

I COCKED up. Shit. I was too soft, not confident and nervous. I rushed at strategic points, stumbled and repeated certain points, basically, I sucked. I know that I’m not a good speaker, but today, I especially sucked. Never in my 2 years of doing public speaking (I was this bugger in VS) have I sucked this bad. Does anyone beg to differ? I don’t think so. Seriously. I sucked. Not the kind where people say, “Aiyoh, you can do better one.” It’s the kind of bad presentation where your teammates look at you with those sad, disappointed eyes, and say, “Its ok”. They knew, I knew. There’s no need to say anymore.

Just want to apologize to the team for my poor performance today. Seriously. Sorry. I cracked. It was hot, stuffy, crowded and those beady professors’ eyes just broke me.

I’m sorry.

Anyway, here are the pics for today, I’ll give a CD containing all the actual high-res pics on Monday.