Emo Shit
I woke up today with a feeling of total dread. For I know that in 4 days, I’ll be gone. My rite of passage as a man will be a long hard 2 years. After that, I’ll be a man.
A man. Wow.
So I logged onto the net at my sister’s place, as I always do when I either get emo or bored. And I blog hopped around. It seems everyone is doing their yearly resolutions and whatever other nonsense. I guess it doesn’t hurt for me to jump onto the bandwagon.
My resolution is simple.
Its to have no fear, and to go all the way, even against all odds, in everything I do.
NS is going to be a trying time for many, especially for me. I guess that I’ve learnt a few things in life.
One, is that fear is bad. VS has taught me that, and I never fully appreciated what VS had taught me till I stepped into JC. Being posted into NCC Land against my will was a scary twisted start to my VS life. I was a wussy sissy piece of shit back then, afraid of my own shadow. Let’s just say that fear is highly visible and it attracts aggression. I mean, if you see a scared cat, the evil side of you would ask you to kick it won’t it? But not everyone in Land was evil, and eventually I found a nice comfortable home tormenting others. Heh.
Fear puts you at the bottom of any food chain, and I cannot have fear cos I cannot be at the bottom anymore.
Another thing I learnt from all this is that, well, if you’re at the bottom, shit rolls down hill. I thank god that when shit rolled to me, it had some more road to roll downhill. I thank the brave soul who made my initial Land days easier, and the subsequent days fun. A salute to Mr ****** *** ***.
MJ has taught me some interesting and valuable lessons too. It taught me to go all the way, so that you don’t regret later on. I regret taking 3 subjects instead of 4, cos I was too lazy to take 4. I regret other things, things that would not have happened if I had pushed harder a little more. It also taught me that even if all the odds are against you, tenacity and wit will get you through many things. It also taught me that not all things in life a rosy and good. A little pre-emptive dirty play could prevent other dirty players form succeeding.
I really hope for the best in the upcoming 2 years of my life, for I hope that it’ll be a great learning experience for me.
Oh my god, I’m kinda emo today aren’t I? must be the rain.
On a side note, I feel that people who get panic attacks are total wussy, sissy faggots. I mean, its ok to be anxious about something like how I woke up today, but to be not able to breathe and to get a panic attack means your life is totally out of your control. Wussy.
Oh, and pardon the grammatical errors, and all the other poor English stuff. My brain has been switched off ever since the end of the A’s. and I’m going to the Civil Defence. Who needs a brain?
A man. Wow.
So I logged onto the net at my sister’s place, as I always do when I either get emo or bored. And I blog hopped around. It seems everyone is doing their yearly resolutions and whatever other nonsense. I guess it doesn’t hurt for me to jump onto the bandwagon.
My resolution is simple.
Its to have no fear, and to go all the way, even against all odds, in everything I do.
NS is going to be a trying time for many, especially for me. I guess that I’ve learnt a few things in life.
One, is that fear is bad. VS has taught me that, and I never fully appreciated what VS had taught me till I stepped into JC. Being posted into NCC Land against my will was a scary twisted start to my VS life. I was a wussy sissy piece of shit back then, afraid of my own shadow. Let’s just say that fear is highly visible and it attracts aggression. I mean, if you see a scared cat, the evil side of you would ask you to kick it won’t it? But not everyone in Land was evil, and eventually I found a nice comfortable home tormenting others. Heh.
Fear puts you at the bottom of any food chain, and I cannot have fear cos I cannot be at the bottom anymore.
Another thing I learnt from all this is that, well, if you’re at the bottom, shit rolls down hill. I thank god that when shit rolled to me, it had some more road to roll downhill. I thank the brave soul who made my initial Land days easier, and the subsequent days fun. A salute to Mr ****** *** ***.
MJ has taught me some interesting and valuable lessons too. It taught me to go all the way, so that you don’t regret later on. I regret taking 3 subjects instead of 4, cos I was too lazy to take 4. I regret other things, things that would not have happened if I had pushed harder a little more. It also taught me that even if all the odds are against you, tenacity and wit will get you through many things. It also taught me that not all things in life a rosy and good. A little pre-emptive dirty play could prevent other dirty players form succeeding.
I really hope for the best in the upcoming 2 years of my life, for I hope that it’ll be a great learning experience for me.
Oh my god, I’m kinda emo today aren’t I? must be the rain.
On a side note, I feel that people who get panic attacks are total wussy, sissy faggots. I mean, its ok to be anxious about something like how I woke up today, but to be not able to breathe and to get a panic attack means your life is totally out of your control. Wussy.
Oh, and pardon the grammatical errors, and all the other poor English stuff. My brain has been switched off ever since the end of the A’s. and I’m going to the Civil Defence. Who needs a brain?
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